okay so i have 2 words for you.. GREYS ANATOMY... oooooh baby i'm excited you wouldn't even understand.. my whole week has been based around going to my best friends house and watching it... oh my.. but its been a pretty crappy week.. my dad is M.I.A for the week.. doing something in columbus who knows what it is.. evidently he quit his job.. so who knows where he's getting all his money. but oh well.. mom goes to cleveland friday .. hopefully the results come back like they always do but its always freaky and now ecspecially with the whole deal that's going on.. although i wouldn't know what the deal would be because the only reason i know about it is from over hearing kirk tell his brother at the baseball game.. i've been praying extra hard lately and reading the bible more than i think i ever have.. i just have to keep telling myself it will be fine everything will work out.. but that hasn't worked for the past 8 years so i figure.. i'll just turn that over to "the big man upstairs" whatever plan he has for
my family and i is best for all of us.. i have so much more on my mind about all of this but i just can't put it into words.. it just seems like everything in life is going so fast lately.. its like..grandma is getting way worse and it gives me the creeps.. i know someday i'll walk in and she'll be like.. who are you.. and i dread that day everytime i see her she smiles at me ..we have the greatest relationship ever and i feel like if i ever need someone to talk to she'll be there.. i've lived up the street from her my whole entire life and i see her everyday.. and to just think someday .. many many many years from now that she won't live in that house anymore.. its a horrible thought.. without my grandma i wouldn't be who i am today.. and i know that sounds cheesey but its definatly true.. she's my role model my biggest hero in the world. she's made me a better person and has taught me so much.. from how to shuffle cards.. to how to make cookies.. to how to do the easiest math problems.. and now it seems like she's lost all that and i'm the one teaching her.. it hurts to see her on a bad day when she can't remember anything and just sits there and cries.. besides the fact that i get choked up when i see people cry even if i have no clue who they are.. its the worst thing to see someone you love so much cry and not know what to do.. and who can barely do anything..
my family and i is best for all of us.. i have so much more on my mind about all of this but i just can't put it into words.. it just seems like everything in life is going so fast lately.. its like..grandma is getting way worse and it gives me the creeps.. i know someday i'll walk in and she'll be like.. who are you.. and i dread that day everytime i see her she smiles at me ..we have the greatest relationship ever and i feel like if i ever need someone to talk to she'll be there.. i've lived up the street from her my whole entire life and i see her everyday.. and to just think someday .. many many many years from now that she won't live in that house anymore.. its a horrible thought.. without my grandma i wouldn't be who i am today.. and i know that sounds cheesey but its definatly true.. she's my role model my biggest hero in the world. she's made me a better person and has taught me so much.. from how to shuffle cards.. to how to make cookies.. to how to do the easiest math problems.. and now it seems like she's lost all that and i'm the one teaching her.. it hurts to see her on a bad day when she can't remember anything and just sits there and cries.. besides the fact that i get choked up when i see people cry even if i have no clue who they are.. its the worst thing to see someone you love so much cry and not know what to do.. and who can barely do anything.. but on a lighter note.. i don't have school tomorrow because i'm going to some FCCLA district rally everyone keeps telling me its boring and it sucks.. but hey seriously with me and mikaila i'm sure we will make it a blast i mean.. we're both pretty dang exciting people i'd say
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I'm sorry to hear about your Dad. Maybe he's trying to find a real good in Columbus? I'm sure with his experiance he'd get a great job. I think your Dad is having a hard time with life right now. But he'll be fine don't worry. And as for your mom She's fine. (I think) Don't worry about that. (if you want you could tell me what Kirk said) God would never take a great mom away from her awesome kids. Your mom is just under alot of stress right now. Plus look at the boyfriend she has, totally stressful. lol And the Grandma thing. I don't know if you remember but my Grandpa Kirsch had Alzhemier's diease. I dreaded the day that he'd ask who I was. That day happened and it was HORRIBLE. But I realized that the person that was saying that wasn't my real Grandpa. My Grandpa loved me and knew who I was. Grandma is sorta going through the same thing right now. Grandma is still in there somewhere. Somedays it seems like she isn't there somedays she there so much it makes me smile. I'm worried about going through the whole who are you but just remember the real Grandma loves you SO much. You are her life Emmi. If you wouldn't come and see her or teach HER things her life would'nt be the same. The things that you are going through are just little (although they seem huge) stepping stones in God's plan for you Emmi. And let me tell you I think He has GREAT things in store for you. Just put your troubles in God's hands. And they will all work themselves out. If you want to someday we could pray together or read verses in the Bible together. Cause we are both going through some rough spots. Cause you do know you can tell me ANYTHING and I'll help you through them.
God Bless, Chris
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